so I came to realize alot last night, the friends that I have now are pretty much the friends I want to have the rest of my life and hopefully it will be that way. Holding grudges isnt a good thing but once you disrespect someone and you lose their friendship I dont think there is any way of going back. I feel like RESPECT IN A FRIENDSHIP IS NUMBER ONE AND IF THERE ISNT ANY YOU SHOULDNT REMAIN FRIENDS WITH THAT PERSON. Once I feel like you have disrespected me, there is no way of being friends wiht me. NEVER LET ANY FRIENDS MONEY( trust I learned the hard way) even though they supposed to be ur closest friends.
I walk into a friends bday party yesterday and the first person i saw was one of those people that USED to be my friend. No beef, i just dont feel the need to speak to that person, so I didnt say hello of any sort to them. As the night went on, and the liquor started flowing to taht person's body, he says "thats a nice watch, where'd you get it" , myself sitting on the couch next to a mutaul friend, just said guess without looking at them. When the liquor really started flowing through the blood, they(meaning the person i used to be cool with) were like just let it go blah blah blah. I mean i have no problem with this person, he is a great individual but i just feel like i shouldnt associate myself with this person no more. Am i wrong? They continued to bother me throughout the night and I didnt think anything of it bc its drunkness so i let things fly. UPon leaving i said goodbye to everyone including this person. Am I holding a grudge? or am I just associating myself with people that I am happy with?
Ive lost alot of friends through bullshit, and some of them I regret losing but life goes on and people grow. I forgive people that have done wrong to me and dont let them bother me anymore. I came to realize that holding grudges leads you nowhere and it isnt somehting that should be done. its not only wrong but it is very childish. I feel like i have matured tremendously not only from high school but within the last year. Im dont with all the bullshit and I am now trying to get all my shit in check and prepare myself for the future. I love all the people that are in my life right now and i hope it stays that way.
p.s.- i know i wrote alot but I just had to get this off my chest.
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i was thinking that before. how good i am w/the people that surround me and such. and sometimes it's just better to let shit go.. and people are part of that. people come and go man, true story.. "some leave footprints behind others get erased with time" <--- that's going in the book.
haha
ramoo.... do you know of this BOOK michelle speaks of? yummy...
YO!
holding grudges sucks, but i agree 100%.
sometimes, they do you dirty, and it don't really piss you off anymore but... well, you can't go back to how it was.
it's dead.
does that mean they were never your friend? i wish i knew.
i'm the same w the drama i experienced in HS w a certain someone.
"they say people in your life are seasons" though... so it's cool.
we have each other!
and i love you too!
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